One Word: Hope
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Sometimes you hear something that’s like a punch in the stomach and no matter how hard you try, you can’t recover. You cry, you talk and still nothing makes you see the positive. Your heart literally breaks in two. You ask God why, but there is no answer.
2012 was a difficult year. It was hard, dirty and it wasn’t easy to find good things about it. From the pain in the ass things like broken pipes, no dishwasher to the lost babies, school issues and the separated couple I’m still praying for daily..it was rough.
Christmas Day, Lance prayed. He thanked God for the Baby that was born for us. That baby that came to save us. To bring us hope. He reminded us that we all have hope if only we trust and open ourselves up to it.
I have started this year with even more distressing news on my heart. News that I wish I could push away as far as possible because it’s not the kind of thing mothers want to hear. I have nothing to offer, nothing that will make anything better or even a bright side. But I have hope. And so I hope for that miracle that I know can happen from Him. I pray for understanding if the miracle I hope for isn’t in His plans. I will not despair.
I am committing to Hope. This is my goal for the year: to live in hope with a little bit of faith and love thrown in, the Theological Virtues. With these three, I can’t go wrong.
The reality is it’s easy to go down the path of despair. It’s looking at us nonstop, either in our lives or those around us. It takes real effort to find Hope in our lives. Yet there is hope. There is hope in the smiling faces of my children, in the arms of my husband, in the prayers of family and friends, in the perfectly timed call from a friend. There is hope in the unexpected.
I choose to live in hope rather than wallow in the despair that sometimes life just is. My goal is to find hope in Him and live that way. To bring hope to those around me. I want to have Faith that is strong enough to move mountains. I will never know the answers to why things happen to certain people, why there is suffering, but I can have hope because I am loved and cared for by God.
2013 is here, I can’t wish it away. With hope, I will live it to the fullest.
~ And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.
From Cory:
The most eloquent post I’ve read by you. You definitely have a compassionate spirit. Even though I don’t alway get empathy, your words spoke to me and I’m glad you’re my friend. I’ll keep you and yours in my prayers.
From Nicole:
Thanks, Cory. Your words mean a lot. And the prayers appreciated.
From Nicole:
And to hear someone say “compassionate spirit” about me…wonders for my self worth. So really, thanks.
From Nikki Andrews:
I am sorry about the news about your friend. I didn’t know how to respond because that is heartbreaking but, I prayed. I never feel like my words are adequate in times like those and I always feel I say the wrong things. But I prayed for you and your friend.
2012 brought us together and it has been a great gift for me. So I am grateful for 2012. It’s a small thing in the grand scheme of things but I am just so happy it happened. I have no idea why it took so long for us to find each other but we did! I’ve enjoyed every second. Thanks friend!
From Jill:
I am so sorry for what you are going through. You and your family are heavy on my heart and in my prayers!